Demanding Proof of Being Treated Kindly for as Long as Possible
I have portrayed what a newborn infant first seeks from its mother.
Destruction Needed to Cure This Disease
At Tokyo’s Chidorigafuchi, the cherry blossoms reflect in the water and seem to float in distorted images. As I gaze on them, the center of my focus dissipates, so that I can no longer maintain the image and feel as if about to fall into a swirling vortex.
Keeping up the Pureness
Her aggressive attitude, “I have such a fine womb,” is a destructive impulse, occurring as a defense mechanism, that gives rise to self-injurious behavior. I project myself onto this woman and see her as I. The flowers blooming around her are all severed, as if in sympathy for her, and flaunt their pistils. I have created this painting for other women, whom I think will feel in sympathy with it. A capacity for sympathy is a special attribute of individuals with wombs who can produce eggs and create a child.
Nyctalopia
We can find a common bond between gravity and strong emotion. When we “fall depressed” due to psychological injury, our heart sinks as if pulled down by gravity and cannot lift itself back up. It sounds paradoxical, but a ghost floats weighted down by heaviness. I thought this made the most wonderfully charming subject for a painting – the idea of a ghost floating not with an ethereal lightness but weighted with the gravity of emotion.
Deliberately Caused Insufficiency or Excess
Engraved Alter of Limbs
Having torn away her irrational, deeply fragmented self, the woman is happy. She has obtained a distance from her grandiose fantasies and her anxiety over losing self-worth, but to the outside world, she physically appears to be losing her distinctions from her surroundings. Unconsciously, she reveals a mirror effect of self-respect and obedience.
Scattered Deformities in the End
Small fragments of other people eat into one’s own behavior. While maintaining a happy relationship with the outside world, the woman endlessly continues to dig out the alien fragments she drives from her being. Also expressed is her desire to completely eliminate fear –manifest in compulsive guilt, sense of sin, deception and being deceived, exposing and being exposed– from all aspects of her behavior.
Becoming Friends with All the Children in the World
The title, Becoming Friends with All the Children in the World, concerns a mad idea, impossible to achieve, that I remember firmly believing in as an infant. Although a conviction, equivalent to a delusion of grandeur, that presupposes omnipotent powers, I still apply it as an incantation to quiet my psychic distress, words that touch my heartstrings.